Hi everyone. Remember me? I used to have a blog that I updated regularly. I also used to shower in the mornings and sleep longer than 2 hours at a time. I used to be a semi put together mom. Now I am a hot mess. I never feel rested and I lack big time in the hygiene department. I am a mom of a newborn. And a toddler. At once. I have 2 kids under 2. And it is HARD.
Remember when I wrote this? Well, I was on to something. When I wrote that, I didn't have a clue how hard it would be to manage 2 little ones at the same time. I still don't know how I'm going to manage it now that it is my reality. I'm tired. I'm emotional. I'm a little discouraged. I feel like I won't ever get the hang of it. And as each day passes with me still not getting the hang of it, I feel like the biggest loser ever.
It doesn't help that everyone I talk to with more than 1 child says the same thing to me. Everyone tells me that it doesn't get easier. Seriously? Can't 1 person tell me that it's a piece of cake after the baby turns 2 weeks old??? Pretty please? I keep hearing stories of endless exhaustion, a lifetime of showers after 3pm, and running late to every appointment for the next 18 years. That sounds really awful to this former semi put together mom. I need a glimmer of hope that I will get the hang of 2 kids at once before the baby is weaned. Showers before 10am are critical to my sanity. And the general population's air quality. For reals.
Right now, I am relying on the help that I get from JD. He is on paternity leave for the next 4 weeks, thank the Lord. I am also coming to terms that I can't do it all right now. I am doing as much as I can and tending to both girls' needs as best as I can, but I'm not beating myself up when I am overwhelmed. And I pray. A lot. And cry. A little. Okay a lot. But I'm blaming the hormones on that.
Anyone want to tell me it's gets easier sooner than later? For these guys' sake?